I Love My Big Sister

Ahhhhhhhh extreme irritation setting in. Just going through the daily motions of my life, can sometimes be exhausting and a little over-exhilarating. I've been working non-stop, 9-9 everyday for the last three weeks. Making money is something I enjoy doing, but its not my main goal in life. I see happiness in love. The love between husband and wife, mother and children, father and daughter, siblings, and friends. These are the things that intrigue me. This is what I look forward to in the future and what I ultimately want in this life.

Yesterday, I went to the Bar with my 25-year-old sister for the first time since I've turned 21. We were in the bar for about thirty minutes and fifteen of those minutes were spent standing at the bar getting something to drink. So when we finally sat down, my sister was complaining that it was hot and she was feeling suffocated. So, she takes off her jacket and tells me we're going to go outside for some fresh air. I set my drink down, tell the man sitting next to me to watch it, and as soon as I turn around, I see my sister stumbling in her heels and she just faints to the floor. Falls right on her face. Just out cold. And I am mortified.

Shit! I can't believe this just happened. What am I supposed to do? I think I just might faint right along with her. 

These are all of the things that ran through my head in the few seconds it took for me to rush over to her. She had told me about a few times that she had fainted before after feeling hot, so I didn't yell for anybody to call the ambulance. No, I smacked and pushed her for a few seconds until she came to. She was very disoriented and it was completely terrifying to watch my BIG sister, depend so heavily on someone else for support.

And it opened my eyes. I've always considered me and my older sister to be close. I tell her everything, even the things that I promise myself I'm not going to tell her. And she chastises me as if I were her child. But I know its all out of love. Growing up with no mother, taught us to depend on each other for that woman-to-woman companionship. So even when we go weeks without speaking to each other and seeing each other, when we do finally find ourselves together, its like no time was spent apart. But I took this all for granted.

My sister has always been a loner. But I don't think she should live a life of solitude if she's going to be randomly fainting every time her body gets too hot. I love her, and although I was always aware of this fact, I didn't know how much she meant to me until I thought she was a goner. I don't want to get all cheesy and emotional on this post. I've been doing ENOUGH of that for the last three months. I guess what I'm trying to say is: don't take anything for granted. life is way too short, this shit could literally end at any given moment. so live like you'll die tomorrow, love like you've never been hurt, and never EVER take your big sister for granted.

That is all.

XoXo,
Tia

Why Would You Ever???

So apparently, Russia is considering suspending all U.S. adoptions of Russian children and judging by what I just read, I can definitely see why. This woman, who is a Tennessee native, put her recently adopted 7-year-old grandson on a plane back to Moscow ALONE. The adoptive mother sent a NOTE, citing that the boy was violent and had severe psychological problems. What the fuck did she expect? Not to say that are children are temperamental and have these issues, but the boy was adopted. And not only did she decide to snatch his newfound family from him, this idiot put the boy on a plane ALONE that flew half way around the world. Its tragic enough that these kids don't have their birth parents, but then you put him through something traumatic like that? Russia would be well within its right to suspend American adoptions.

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May 20, 2010

Its getting close to that time of year. Almost five years ago, I fell in love with the marvelous, one and only, Haz3. We shared our first kiss on May 20, 2005 and I haven't looked back since. No other man compares, although he likes to have these minute arguments about men and women that don't matter. I know I'm young, I'm always well aware of my age. But when I feel, whatever it is that I feel, I feel hard. So, my feelings for him have kind of been unchanging in the last five years. Of course, there have been times where I didn't like him very much, but the love has always remained. Besides, its just not possible to like somebody all the time. In my opinion at least. Anywho, last year on May 20, we went to Discovery World, which is like this big sciency place for kids (no judgment passed please) and then we spent the night @ a suite. It was so romantic and so sweet. And I won't ever forget it. He paid for everything. So this year, I want to take him to Navy Pier in Chicago. I'm not sure if I want to stay the weekend in the city though because their hotels are expensive. Do you think we should just go to Chicago for the day, and then come home and get a room here? I really honestly don't care what we do. I just want to be with him, next to him, kissing him, and loving him. 05-20-05 is forever. . . as I like to say.. . .

XoXo,
Tia

In the Mood

This song reminds me so much of me and my ex. . . kinda freaky. But. . . I'm young. So bare with me :) 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8iRFvxpGE-M

Hedonism. . . My New Venture

        I visited one of my known loves, Alyssa V. today, also known as vobi1kanobi on twitter if you want to follow her. Talking with my friends always brings certain parts of my psyche to the forefront. Like, I've been through so much these past few months. Break-ups, miscarriages, failures in school and work. . . and things are just now starting to pick up.

         Anyway, Alyssa wants to go to Jamaica in January. Her and her family just went for Easter, and after I told her I've never been out of the country. She INSISTED that we take this trip. And I'm all down. We looked at this resort called Hedonism II where all types of hedonistic shit takes place (go figure). I'm sorry ready to grab my passport, bikini, and flip flops and do once in a lifetime things. Anybody care to join???

         By the way, if I'm going to be walking around in a nude hotel, I believe a strict diet and bikini waxing are definitely in order. Don't you?

WV vs Duke

A known skeptic of athletes and their emotional intentions, especially those in the spotlight, this video clip struck my heart chords strong. I feel bad for Dasean Butler. . .

Dasean Butler's career ended by knee injury

Lunch with my Love