ANNOYED

Today has been one of my more generally exhausting days at work. I presented the All About Me project to my students and they seemed to be pretty receptive to it. Or maybe they were just excited to see me showcase more of my weirdness. Either way, it was a good half-hour this morning. But when I came back from the medical center to get my TB test, they were outrageously out of hand. More so than usual. We worked on problem-solving and ratios, and the teacher that I work with got it ALL WRONG. And I'm just worried that my students are going to go into the WKCE in a few weeks and perform terribly on the Math portion because he's constantly misinforming them. And how am I supposed to counteract that as a tutor?? As a student, you're taught to believe everything that comes out of your teacher's mouth. I'm new here. SO WHAT DO I DO??? idk idk idk idk. Good news today though, I finally got my focus list of students I'll be working with one-on-one this year. Yay. . . .

For the Deep Thinkers of the Universe

"if you fear the gun you will never be calm enough to hit your target." -- African Proverb

Love Letter to My Razor

See

You and i
What we have is a love-hate relationship
And even though its going to pain me to do this
I kinda figure you’re gonna be able to relate to it
i. . .
gotta let you go
you’ve hurt me so good
and although we’ve bled together
you are not good for my soul
you damaged the most visible parts of me
to give a voice to the part of me that no one could see
and I hear you
loud and clear baby
the fat lady has sung
and the curtains have closed
because our love was built on a foundation
of my failures unsewed
I must admit that I used you
Took your beautiful, sharp edges
And showcased my ugliness
Bared my teeth when you and I were alone
With you, I permanently inscribed the lyrics to my soul’s poem
So lines that will never fade into the background
Serve as a permanent reminder of pain I couldn’t take
Inflicted on a life I had no desire to live
I love you
But I’ve just got to leave
Because being with you chips away at the very best parts of me
And I only love you
Because you teach me how to hate myself so well
So to this love-hate relationship
I’m saying farewell
And eventually, I’ll learn how to deal when shit hits the fan
And life’s fecal matter is splayed across my face
But I can’t use you anymore
Because I want a chance to live the life you threatened to erase
I’ll always remember your cold, gleaming smile
And the edginess that cut deep;
Made my tears run a river of red
I love you
But somebody else will be sleeping in your bed
I’m moving on

The Social Network (social reality at its best)

Saw this movie Saturday night. Fell in love with it after the first scene. I don’t know Mark Zuckerberg from Adam and Eve, but after watching that film, I feel closer to him than some of the people I hang out with. The movie was A+ for me guys. It had expertly drawn characters, witty dialogue, and a plot that you had no choice but to pay attention to. Jesse Eisenberg displayed wonderful acting ability as the famed Mark Zuckerberg. I couldn’t have asked for a better Saturday date night Movie. I’m recommending it to all of my friends and anybody who happens to read this blog. Below, is my fav quote from the movie (or one of because there were so many!).
Facebook Lawyer: Mr. Zuckerberg, do I have your full attention?
Mark Zuckerberg: [stares out the window] No.
Facebook Lawyer: Do you think I deserve it?
Mark Zuckerberg: [looks at the lawyer] What?
Facebook Lawyer: Do you think I deserve your full attention?
Mark Zuckerberg: I had to swear an oath before we began this deposition, and I don’t want to purjure myself, so I have a legal obligation to say no.
Facebook Lawyer: Okay - no. You don’t think I deserve your attention.
Mark Zuckerberg: I think if your clients want to sit on my shoulders and call themselves tall, they have the right to give it a try - but there’s no requirement that I enjoy sitting here listening to people lie. You have part of my attention - you have the minimum amount. The rest of my attention is back at the offices of Facebook, where my colleagues and I are doing things that no one in this room, including and especially your clients, are intellectually or creatively capable of doing.
[pauses]
Mark Zuckerberg: Did I adequately answer your condescending question?